Friday, December 24, 2010


I was reading a post i blogged last year about my 2009.
To keep the tradition alive, before these last few days turn into January I guess I'd talk about 2010 too.

This year has blown away so fast but it generally has been a good year and I'm thankful for that.

School has been the toughest semester yet but I made it through , Alhamdulillah.

I grew up. I think that's what I basically perceive of myself. I made a few weird but life changing decisions that made my life easier and harder at the same time. Bare in mind, never I regret those decisions.

For the first time in my life, I've been analyzed and judged by the public's eye. Quite interesting I must say and I never knew I could be THAT interesting.

I also know that success, achievements and the right decisions are the hardest things to make. IT'S NOT LIKE I'VE BEEN MAKING MUCH ANYWAY!

My friends, I've made a few, kept a few and they're precious to me. My friends especially have helped me through and through the past year and I'm glad I found you guys.

and of course, family has been up and down, here and there. :)

That's about it.

Happy New Year, everyone! Welcome 2011.

If it was a competition.

If it was a competition, I would win it even before it all started.
Anyway, can't wait for New Year's.


I hope ure reading my blog and it brings u as much pain possible.

that's how much i despise u now.

p/s: u were only a joke but now ure really getting under my skin, b*tch.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

One Tree Hill.

Thank goodness for my very smart and sensible Jim, he lend me his One Tree Hill CDs and I've been hooked on it since last nite just so I can keep my sanity in check.

I grew up with this TV series and I actually got to realise how much different things were back then. My 13 year old sister was so amazed by how much more content there is in One Tree Hill.

I guess all that partying, chanel handbags, booze and thick pancake make-up in series like 'gossip girls' and 90210 are just not cutting it anymore.

Stronger story lines, real friendships and a real moral benefit from every episode sounds more interesting doesn't it.

Third CD here I come.

p/s: I miss u. Why does it have to be a 14 hour flight?

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Sad much.

It's obvious I'm already missing u.

I'm already watching one tree hill before u have even left. shish.

the only thing i despise the most about watching it is because it reminds me of your past.

I honestly need to calm down.


Love, Syaz.

Monday, December 13, 2010

On A Lighter Note.

He instructed me to stop stalking.

He said it's not good for my health and our relationship.

It's worse at the fact that he'll be gone for the next twelve days to visit the Queen.

I need a plan to distract myself.

1. Watch One Tree Hill from season 1 to season 8 as much as possible.

2. Try to act normal everyday. Be it taking a bath after I wake up, have breakfast and all that sort of things.

3. Maybe try not to have a nervous breakdown.

4. Revamp my room maybe? (KIV)

5. Read as much novels I can get my hands on.

6. Blog as much as possible (LOL, LAME!)

7. Refrain myself from excessive blogging (OVER OBVIOUS REASON ABOVE)


p/s: U8/74A will miss 74E

Saturday, December 11, 2010


Today has been a sucky day. Spent the day in tears and afterwards, a nose blocked and a huge migraine. Well, I guess I'm blogging right now because of those tears.. heeee..

Bare in mind, I'm one spoiled little girl so thank you for being there for me and my family for the last 14 days especially. You've been wonderful and still am to me, Mama and Awiq. No words are sufficient to express my gratitude towards you.

Of course, at the fact that you took me away for one night. It was a very kind act and I appreciate it. I had a super awesome time with ordering McDonald's and watching National Geography all night long.

Being there for me when I was having a nervous breakdown at 3am. Making sure I sleep okay and you're there when I start crying again in the morning after I wake up. It is a very difficult time for me and you being there every step of the way is just amazing.

Mum even said I am very lucky to have a good boyfriend like you in times like this. She told me that this morning when I was crying buckets down the phone with her.

When I take a moment to think how you silently slip into my life, I get caught in awe. My life is entwined with yours. Even one day with you not in my home, mum starts shooting me questions on your where abouts and our relationship status.

I have a caring mother and You.

Writing this out, I just realised I should count my blessings. I mean, I really really should count. Despite the difficult days we all had to go through, I have an amazing support system to make sure I get out alive from all this.

Growing up and turning into an adult, I know it's difficult but I never knew all this could be so overwhelming. Despite how soft hearted I always assume my mum is, she is actually one strong human being.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

stop it.

I'm actually still stalking. sumpah malu.
haha. syaz, stop.

silly me.

I can officially say I'm such a big cow to my blog. I noticed the time intervals between my posts! Posting stuff only when I feel like it or when I need to rat out. What a cow!

This blog right now is the same blog like any other. There is worry in my heart & I need to express it. Here goes...

I have this strict policy where I DO NOT, I mean, DO NOT stalk other people's facebook, twitter or blogs, BUT ONLY under certain exceptions; insecurities.
And yes, I am feeling vulnerable and insecure right this very second.

Reading those post on your facebook wall and reading her blog at once is driving me nuts. I can't even call you and hover around you shooting questions because you have futsal now. It's annoying and psychotic. (I will never change, will I)
And all those post on your facebook?! Come on, mentang-mentang status 'single'.
Somebody? Just shoot me and be done with it, if that's okay.

Life is hard as it is without the skinny ex-girlfriend and McDonald's.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

No idea.

I think this is the best holiday I've ever had. :D

Full schedule everyday. Family time bonuses.