Friday, December 24, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I grew up with this TV series and I actually got to realise how much different things were back then. My 13 year old sister was so amazed by how much more content there is in One Tree Hill.
I guess all that partying, chanel handbags, booze and thick pancake make-up in series like 'gossip girls' and 90210 are just not cutting it anymore.
Stronger story lines, real friendships and a real moral benefit from every episode sounds more interesting doesn't it.
Third CD here I come.
p/s: I miss u. Why does it have to be a 14 hour flight?
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
He said it's not good for my health and our relationship.
It's worse at the fact that he'll be gone for the next twelve days to visit the Queen.
I need a plan to distract myself.
1. Watch One Tree Hill from season 1 to season 8 as much as possible.
2. Try to act normal everyday. Be it taking a bath after I wake up, have breakfast and all that sort of things.
3. Maybe try not to have a nervous breakdown.
4. Revamp my room maybe? (KIV)
5. Read as much novels I can get my hands on.
6. Blog as much as possible (LOL, LAME!)
7. Refrain myself from excessive blogging (OVER OBVIOUS REASON ABOVE)
8. STAY SANE!
p/s: U8/74A will miss 74E
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Bare in mind, I'm one spoiled little girl so thank you for being there for me and my family for the last 14 days especially. You've been wonderful and still am to me, Mama and Awiq. No words are sufficient to express my gratitude towards you.
Of course, at the fact that you took me away for one night. It was a very kind act and I appreciate it. I had a super awesome time with ordering McDonald's and watching National Geography all night long.
Being there for me when I was having a nervous breakdown at 3am. Making sure I sleep okay and you're there when I start crying again in the morning after I wake up. It is a very difficult time for me and you being there every step of the way is just amazing.
Mum even said I am very lucky to have a good boyfriend like you in times like this. She told me that this morning when I was crying buckets down the phone with her.
When I take a moment to think how you silently slip into my life, I get caught in awe. My life is entwined with yours. Even one day with you not in my home, mum starts shooting me questions on your where abouts and our relationship status.
Writing this out, I just realised I should count my blessings. I mean, I really really should count. Despite the difficult days we all had to go through, I have an amazing support system to make sure I get out alive from all this.
Growing up and turning into an adult, I know it's difficult but I never knew all this could be so overwhelming. Despite how soft hearted I always assume my mum is, she is actually one strong human being.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
This blog right now is the same blog like any other. There is worry in my heart & I need to express it. Here goes...
I have this strict policy where I DO NOT, I mean, DO NOT stalk other people's facebook, twitter or blogs, BUT ONLY under certain exceptions; insecurities.
And yes, I am feeling vulnerable and insecure right this very second.
Life is hard as it is without the skinny ex-girlfriend and McDonald's.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
I'm sorry I can't turn back time & tell you being with me
is a big mistake for you.
I'm sorry for the insecurities I can't control.
I'm just sorry every ounce of pain I've brought to you.
I blame no one buy myself knowing you don't want me
I'm sorry you had to make that mistake of loving me and
only getting hurt in return.
I'm sorry for everything.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
(The Singapore Flyer)
Singapore was awesome. A state country with awesome food and more awesome road signs. And i got to DRIVE all the way down from BJ to S'pore. Cool kan kan?
Anyway, the whole Azlan's were there except Awiq! He had a sinus surgery few days before so his doc said he couldn't go. (Luckyhim!)
The food was awesomely sinfully good. We had nasi campur from morning to night. Little did I know, for the next Four days I'd be having the best best putu pirings ever! I've probably gained 5 kgs from those putu pirings alone.
We when to all the touritst hotspots.
(Joo Chiat Road)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Of course, when your household does not have the "glue" to stick everyone together, like every family, my family started going crazy. we started picking on each other a lot more and our rooms get messier with each passing day.
I have no present whatsoever for tomrw, Mother's Day but I do have my loving words for her. For all it's worth, I do love my mom. How annoying, uncool and crazily crazy she could get.
For all she's been thru and being able to make it out alive, I guess she's the closest thing to a superhero. I mean, after bringing us up and tolerating total shit from her husband, which happens to be my dad. Well, all I could do is thank God for having her as a mother.
My mom constantly wears black clothes. Black blouses, black skirts, black pants. Black is only her scope of colour. This morning, she bought herself a new white blouse. Papa, my sisters and me got suspicious. LOL.
p/s: I love you, mum.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Mamak stall has been a big impact and is now a culture in Malaysia. We are very well known for our teh O, roti chanai and chapati.
Where do we get this? The mamak stall.
In Malaysia, especially around Shah Alam and Subang Jaya, mamak stalls are swimming all over the place, every shop lot corner and developed areas.
Why are mamak stalls so famous?
First, it’s because it caters to Malaysians till late at night. The only place a person can rely to look for food late at nights are mamak stall because they open up from morning to morning. From 7am till 3 or 4 in the morning or at times, 24 hours. From breakfast, to lunch to dinner and back to breakfast. This shows how reliable mamak stalls are.
Second, mamak stalls cater to everyone. I mean, everyone. From children, young adults, adults and old people. My brothers and sister go to mamak stalls all the time cause they say it’s fun. Moreover, mamak places are ideal places for overworked society to go to after working hours to unwind and relax before coming home. It’s a cheap place with a pretty nice environment to go to, who would not want that?
Teh tarik, teh o’ limau suam, and teh halia are some drinks examples you can find in mamak. Other than that, rice with mixed chicken, beef, and seafood gravy can be found during lunch. Late at nights, a person can easily ask for Maggie goreng or nasi goreng kampong to satisfy the late night hunger pangs.
Pelita, MMZ, Tanjung Khulafah, Khalifah and Daud are just some of the examples of popular mamak stalls nearby to Bukit Jelutong. So this shows how popular and how demanding a mamak stall is. With that, thank you.
> An oral presentation my sister asked me to help her with. Yes, as the sweet kind older sister, I did everything for her. I'm done with boring topics, after a few minutes of thinking. talking about mamak stalls seems like a good idea. we see it everyday, we go to mamak on a daily or weekly basis. Mightly as well I preach to 13 year old school kids. they'll know the "lepak mamak" culture soon anyway. <
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
<-- Ecah, *My classmate* & Me
Thursday, February 4, 2010
What else have I been neglecting? Owh yes, I've been neglecting myself. I have to admit (embarrasingly), I've gained a few pounds from the lack of trips for body combats at Celebrity. The intention to go is always there in my mind but the energy left in my body is just not sufficient enough. Ergh..! It's killing my self-esteem but too many things to do with so lil' time.
To make things worse, the amount and type of food I've been consuming for the past two weeks is dangerously revolting. Daily consumption of Coney Dogs at school, junk food late at nite, any form of sweet liquid down my throat, smokes through my lungs.. Should I go on?!
And not to mention the complains from my mom (and Dad) bout how I'm too busy for family now. LoL.. It's kindda funny hearing it frm my beloved Mama. I always assumed she'd be used to me busy cuz Paps' hardly home. Mama, mama... :)
After all that complaining, I still do love school. :) Can't imagine myself doing anything else rite now.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I don't look depressed in any way from the outside. How could I when I'm constantly surrounded by the best of friends, fun classes, crazy assignments, non stop activities and trips to visit a sick friend to give as much moral support as I can.
But that's what worries me. I'm in a state of denial that's threatening to burst, to just explode in my face. Tears are threatening to spill as I write this blog. Shish. I'm so emotional lately, I can't believe I can get up and go through the motions..
I never thought I could be so damn lonely. Fuck! I sound so damn selfish and self-centred but it's the damn truth. I'm so fucking lonely becuz I have no one I can be with where I can just be myself, my real self. That's why I'm so fucking lonely and I never thought a person could feel this amount of loneliness and hide it. Damn.
Probably that's why I'm writing this post. That fear in the pit of my stomach that things could just blow up.
I lost a good friend, a friend I could talk to, could easily say what I want no matter how shallow or how stupid it may sound without the worry of being judged. And I lost my friend to his girlfriend. I know it's foolish of me to believe his promises bout me being a priority and he'd always be there for me but no one can blame me for believing such hopeful things and no one should ever blame him on leaving me behind. These things happens all the time.
On top of that, waking up everyday knowing the person u're with now just won't love you how he loved his first lover. Ergh, it's hard to admit this but I have to or I'd be in too much denial. Seeing but ignoring is hard but that thin film of coolness may break anytime. Seeing him mention her everywhere, those little acknowledgements, seeing thoughts of her fleet across his face when he looks at me. How does a person wake up to that?
Writing this all down is easing that burden in me.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
It's been awhile since I posted a blog, of course the same lame excuse. Busy with schoolwork, registration, friends, AWESOME CONCERTS and matters of the heart.
Started off this year with a few close and wonderful friends, a bbq at Serambi Court, BJ and of course accompanied by my 3 beautiful ladies, Anna, June and Marrie.The fireworks were great as usual.
A bit of drama here and there but things are fine now. ( or I'm just in denial, takpe ).
Then came the day i have been waiting for the pass two years. The Neyo Concert in Sunway Lagoon, The Year of The Gentleman and he awfully was. He is a true performer, a singer a dancer and a downright straight up gentleman. The perfect boyfriend to bring home to meet your mum. *sigh*
His songs were just so oh beautiful. I even cried listening to one of em live. Listening to Neyo songs on the radio the whole day, and days before helped with my excitement. and best of all, Intan went with me. who else to share that nite other than my bestie.
Back to the real world.
CLASSES are fine. nothing to be happy or sad about. The lecturers are better than I expected tho so browny points for that. chaching!
Trying to juggle the ever increasing workload. It seems my brain haven't kicked into gear yet for the new year's classes and hopefully it does soon.